Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Why.. ?
Why this fear...?
Why this..
This cold fear.., silently grip me so tightly as though someone was breathing down my neck. This cold breath and suffocation torments my very soul. It envelops my body, devoured my mind and seized my entire prized possesions. The pain of this loss is so overwhelming and unbearable that one could have felt despair like they were going to drown in the desolate sea or burn themselves in the flames of hellfire; fear and agony. This very thought smouldered beneath the mask of what have been my acquaintance, is slowly melting my mask revealing my inner, torn and battered piece of me.
I have to work harder, i say. But it doesn't seem to be easing the pain and all is left is rubble and remanents of scattered pieces of courage and determination. Will I get through it? Am I still going to shine and glow like I used to? Will I..? Will I..? I will... I need.. I must. I can!
It all depends on me. And the remaining days I have, have to be used wisely and be maximize. No more mistakes and merriment.
Maybe this bitterness will make me a bit sweeter.
I got to study hard, harder and the hardest!
And achieve my goal...
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