Tuesday, December 30, 2008
hellos! Very busy as the holidays are ending! hahas, upcoming things are New year eve celebrations! i think i be staying at home to cele with family. So, the sec 1 orientation is coming closer and closer after 1 month of going back to school to plan and work out the events. Hope it be a blast after all the hard work put in! =D Today had the run through of the games to all the sport leaders early in the morning. I was late! =X
For bball, Hope that I see a rainbow after the storm! Apparently, I don't see any of it =( Let's wait! still have 2 more weeks before competition. Currently, have to train more! Donno whether my wrist will recover in time anot. >.< Will also have to plan for the cca attachment for bball, means must also do notice board. SIAN! nvm, everything throw give zhen yi do! xP hahas.
School is starting soon! I haven buy a new bag. my current bag seems to be gone case but no time to shop liao. And need cut hair! super sian. On 31st dec, had a promise with jeremy to 1on1 bball. 2 more days! Want to make it seem very special. haha. A new year, a new me! =D
post again some other time. lalalala~
lol, abit lame. -.-
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Wednesday, December 24, 2008
I went for malaysia trip and had a chalet. Lucas have posted the malaysia trip and kelvin the chalet. I am not in the mood of doing that. And with such a big crisis, I am at a lost of what to do. It had reached the level wherby i have no say. At this point of time, when school is re-opening soon, my homeworks are all not done and there's still all the shit work that needs to be done! I am at the brink of breaking down and collapsing. Nobody understands me and even if they do, all they can do is just sympathise! I could hear the screeching sounds of my body. Everything just come *BAMM! and i was not prepared for anything at all and now i have to pick up the pieces of everything up within the limited time left.
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Argh! It's another post from soo long and this has to be the most sucky one. I am really apologetic for it but i guess i just have to let it out. It's going to be the end of the holidays and because of one incident, everything just changed in the blink of an eye that i found myself being caught in a dead end. Almost all the sec 2s bballers are quitting faster than expected! The team is being destroyed faster than i can plaster it. If you think this is not serious, you are wrong! However, I, as the captain, is not being able to salvage anything and just watched what i have built up since sec 1 crumbled to a spec of dust. It was just one grave mistake that the coach committed that made him lost his temper and caused the entire team to be in a TOTAL mess and i mean REAL MESS! He, in a spite of anger, forced someone to quit and then now, the rest who have been waiting for this to come are grabbing this golden opportunity to leave too. All the promises that they have made to endure till the end of the B'boys were broken. So now what, I am left with no choice but to die out alone. What am i suppose to do? What can i do now? I am not able to retain anyone. Everyone has the same reason, made their final decision and I have no power over it. It's just like i know that the building is gonna blow up and I, just being a bystander, watching the WHOLE BUILDING collapse and there's nothing i can do but grief on it! Is this a joke or what? I can't handle this kind of joke. This is reality, it's happening!!
If that's the case, then, I personally feel that I have really failed as a captain. I am not fit to even be one if I can't even save my team from this crisis, much less hoping for a miracle to occur when i know they do not even exist. Today will be the day that I shed my first drop of tear for the TEAM. Every sweat dripped, every effort and hard work put in, all goes down the drain in a moment of split second when one incident occured which caused a series of events from happening. I had the ability to stop it BUT why, why didn't i do anything? Why did I not speak up in the first place? Everything happened, and now, all is left is for me to regret. My only simple wish is to be able to play for the last year of B'boys. However, it is about to disappear right infront of my very eyes. Can this just be a nightmare?? Where i wake up finding myself in bed knowing that its just a dream, a bad one. If only i am able to turn the clock backwards, i definitely change everything even if it means sacrifcing myself. But now, everything is over, O V E R...
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